Well this is funny but some time you don't really know what is happening around you unless you can see it. I see the news and hear about what is happening in Lebanon but tell you the truth I think they are hiding a lot. Me and my friend last night in my new apartment were sitting on the balcony and talking. It was late about 1 am. And as we sat there we saw thing the alarmed me. We as a lot of fighter jets fly over the area heading about to the Israeli bases, there were not 4 or 5 jets about about 12 to 16 jet with in about 30 minutes. This was shocking to me. And as we looked around we also saw a bright light hag above the area of tel aviv, what is meant to be the capital of Israel. This must have been a watch blimp. They use this to see rockets heading to the city, will as we sat in the 30 minutes we also saw 2 large explosions in the air in that area. The funny thing it that you will never hear about that on the news, Israel will not let the press talk about that kind of stuff. This was not it, earlier that day I was sitting with a different friend in Ramallah, and we were hearing explosions in the area not to close to where we where but we can still hear it my friend told me that they have been doing raid in the area for the last to night, this is the Israeli army in what is now the capital of Palestine. The Israel is hiding a lot and not giving any one any information on what is happening. They are also taking advantage that all the press is focused on the war in the north. The news it not telling any any thing this is a war against Palestine and any one that may help us. The Israelis are killing us and no one even cares or even hears this is a problem and I hope that some day the world will wake up to the war crime of the Israeli government.
I LOVE PALESTINE

Ok today I left my family's house not knowing if I can ever will be able to go back. Well I am confuse but I will make up my mind on where I should go from here. Well I think I really don't want to write right now I just don't feel like it I don't know why but that's it to night for sure I will write some thing. But for know I will say good bye and long live Palestine.

Palestine
my only love in my life

Well hi every one, I will keep this short. I have never be for war nor against it. I have live here in my loved country Palestine, I have always tried to stay away from saying a political remake but know I just want to say that I am vary proud to say. "I AM PALESTINIAN AND PROUD AND I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU ON MY OWN WILL". Israel go what you want this is our land our family's, friends, hopes that you are trying to kill but it does not matter at all any more. You can force me out. No mater that you think you are your not in my eyes. To our brother in Gaza and all of the west bank, I am here hope you all will live through this hard time to show Israel that we will not give up, next to the brother that die, I will not sham you by running away from what you died for, you died for all of us. And to the north thanks for your support its great to know that there are still people that stand with Palestine and are willing to do something about it.
thank all of you and good bye!!!

So I did not really want to rant any more but the truth is I will not rant in this entry, I will B***H. I about had it I sick of Israel and what they put us through what do they think that make people life hard will save their live, tell you truth I DON'T THINK SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All it does is make the more angry at them I mean come on you kill some their brother want to kill you, but that's not what I am talking about, I am talking about the fact I had to sleep at a friends house because there was a check point on my town last night and tell you the truth I walked for an 1 hour until I can find a car to take me back. Well half way back tell you the truth, then I spent another half an hour getting to Ramallah. After all that was the worst this morning I go to go home then to work but until this moment there is a checks point that will not let any one in or out of the town shit I am out of money, tiered and hot, I want back to birzeit to spend the day hoping that the check point will be move but with my luck not it wont. I will just like to say Israel I don't want to say anything but this "you are a bunch of F'ing S.O.B. that want to make our live hell you deserve to get what ever you get." now I bet that some Israel is going to put my blog under tracking or some thing like that but you know what, I don't care " I am sick and tiered of being sick and tiered" as said by papa roach. Well I know one thing you lost one more Palestine today that may think the will be any hope for peace in the area. Well that all I want to talk about for now I will tell you all what happens later the next time I get on a PC hopeful I will be in my own home and not in another friends house, good bye and may Palestine live long

PS " I hate Israel"

So I decided to tell you little about what I am thinking when I write my poems, in other words some thing that is happening around me. The first thing I will write about to day is about my poem "Look at it differently" we this is a message to some one, I only hope that read it. Well PLEASE stop the ranting about every thing for a change. And I found out that you lied to me big time. Well I don't know I may forgive for get or what ever but.... I think things happened for a good reason. And I have heard some new and I think you should realize you have found your twin in this world. Well the poem is trying to say I am not going to he sad mad or what ever any more. Well all thing happen for a reason and they will one day show why it happened that way and I will understand that's its good I may have over acted before and this is the last time I hope to write about this subject or any thing about you because this is the end of the line. THE END!!!!!!!!! You will have one more chance to change my mind and I will not even give it to you until I think is time and its no where to be seen, the new me is here and ruling this hell of a world I live in. I will do what I want when I want to no one can get in my way( but big guys with guns ) LOL this is one big joke to me I hope you all know that have fun with it and don't smoke weed (cough cough)

So today. What a nice day it was great wasn't it. First of all I hate work and hate being treated like a kid what ever I do for my dad (my boss) its not good enough, even if its what he told me to do. blah, I sick of every thing. Will that is not as bad as many other thing that happened today. Will another thing is this thing with me having a feeling about the things that will happen,( I am no where close to the people or the place that the thing happen in). So yes I see thing and again yes they come true, I know you all are thinking I am crazy but I have to say I did not belief them until lately when I left the university for the summer and started to work. Well I have been seeing thing that really worry me, but all of these things are with the people I know in the uni. I don't tell any one about them so it is not like I make them happen but the first time I saw one this summer I was like, nah no way, 2 weeks later I when to visit the uni and found a friend and confirmed what I thought. Ok that was scary but not a big deal. But this time dam, last week I was at work and working my ass of and I saw some thing that scared me I even could not sleep at all thinking about that the hell is happening to me and that I hope that the thing will never come true, the chances of that are about 1 in about 1 million, that's what I thought. I was talking to a friend and he told me what I saw has happened, holy shit. I was freaking out, I was thinking what the hell, first for the idea that happened at the college and then because that I saw it happen before it happened. Well that was not the end of the bad things today. Well I have been waiting for a friend to come for the last 2 months, going crazy waiting for him. The is one of my best friends and I missed him. Well Israel has passed a new f***ing law about Arab Americans being refused entry to the country and this was enforced the day he came too. He arrived today at the airport and was taken for questioning, normal no biggi. This time they held him for 12 hours and then told him that he had to get on the plane and go back the USA. He was already here for f*** sake. So he did not come, and I did not see him and he did not get to see his family that I know he misses like hell, his mother and his sisters and little brother. Go I feel sorry for him and more then that all I want to say is " dam you Israel for make life hell" and they wonder where all the hate comes from??? dah. So this is too much of me ranting I will try my best to write some thing happy next time but life has been bad so I don't know bye all you people that I just bothered you with reading this rant.

Hey today I want to talk about how people are thing that we should not trust. How they have no feelings and no way for telling you any things but lies. I hate this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
god, I don't know why I have hope to find some one that may be different but I always have, I as such a dumb ass. What made me think that I still don't know? But this time I will change for the person I have been trying to hide away for the longest time, this dark side of me. This side have never been seen by any one but a few poor souls that cant look at me any more. This whole thing went to far this time. To much hope and happy wishing!! Well guess what? I AM NOT MISTER NICE GUY ANY MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you have forced the devil out to the playing ground, the pain you will feel is nothing, but you will see anew person that you could never have thought I could be. If I believed that if I died it would be more peaceful I would have not even wrote this, but would be passing to the other side. But lucky for human kind, I DON'T. I have my own ways of making change.
I hope you know your self the person that I am talking about. But most likely the wrong person will think its about them, dumb humans. Well if you don't see me soon you will know what this is all about with in time. And to the person that did this there is one way back and I know you will not do it even though you know how.
well I will let a few words float in your mind so you think about that it really means to get hurt:

I will forgive but I won't forget
And I hope you know you've lost my respect

papa roach - blood

and one last thing you can only forgive so many times there is not the many left.

So today I am coming home and in the car I here on the radio that 23 in the last 24 hours have been killed in Gaza. Dam that's a lot, I have one question, WHERE ARE YOU WORLD???? Why don't I hear any one say some thing some one out there. Look what is happening! For what you may ask, it all because one soldier was captured. Well one that may be alive(may have been killed because what just happened) for 23 lives and counting. I think that they are just doing this because they know they are weak and can do much. But what good may come out of this?? Only more death I think its time to just say stop!! This is going to far, why do the world not get in to this and says stop. Or is the whole world scared of this small country ISRAEL. I don't believe that any thing will happen but to show us your support. If not, well you will know why there are some many people here that does not like the governments of the world! I know one thing this whole thing makes me stand tall and say "I AM A PALESTINIAN AND I WILL NOT FALL TO THE PRESSURE I LOVE MY LAND." we are all here for all those people that die, you did nothing but live in your land that you love the land of Palestine.